More like me...

Okay I just realized that this title is somewhat terrifying...


If you're still reading then...well...thanks.


Because if anything is "more like me" then the world's got issues...


Anyway...


So I thought I'd share my ecstatic JOY! Why? Because, I don't remember if I've said this or not, but I'm officially moved into my new home. And at first my room just had a bed, an empty desk, and clothes. But now the room is definitely looking more like "me."


This is what part of my desk looks like now. See? eh, eh? 


What? I'm pathetic and strange you say? 


Why yes, yes I am


-alexthenerdette

A Moo Perspective on being interesting...not really

How about an inspiring reflection on this week's awesomeness? 

Yea ok.

I don't even remember what happened Monday so I'll skip such happenings that happened.

On Tuesday I got to scrub in on a knee replacement surgery which was da biz bomb fo sho! It was just plain cool...no it was awesome...no wait...it was OUTSTANDING! 

This week was our Spirit Week at school for Homecoming and Wednesday was "wacky day." So I dressed up for that and I reminded myself of a few things that I looked like:

- The muggle version of Luna Lovegood

- A "Who" from Whoville (which btw "ew!")

- An explosion of candy

Anyway...

Today seems like Friday, but it's only Thursday. Shame, shame. It was an interesting day though. We put our Senior Class float together in about an hour and a half, and it looked TERRIBLE. But what I really liked about it was that for the first time, everyone in the class had their own special part. It wasn't just about the athletes it involved everyone, and even though how it looked was a complete failure there were definitely some good things that happened. 

So what exactly is hip-an-happenin' tomorrow? 

Well, you see, tomorrow there is no school because of a teacher inservice. So the morning will involve me taking senior pictures. Then I will have to go to school (even though there is no school) and take a test for my college class. Just grrreat, huh? After that the Homecoming ceremony will take place in the afternoon then the football game will follow. And finally after all of that, there is the homecoming dance. 

Wow. What a boring blog post.

My apologies,

-alexthenerdette

Definitely "real"... if ya know what i'm sayin...

Soooo...

There's this writing assignment I've been procrastinating on for about a month now, and it's due tomorrow, and it's late, and it involves me coming up with something to write about, and I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to do. 

And yeah... I'm kinda stuck between a rock and a crazy place... (Does that even make sense? I'm losing it.)

But not really...

I can't really come up with anything to write about mainly because I stayed up until three in the morning today finishing up season 5 of Doctor Who, and also because I just finished reading Mockingjay. So my mind is kinda full of thoughts and ideas that aren't really suitable for a column in the local newspaper...

What do to, what to do... 

Hmmm.... Writer's block. Real or not real? 

"Real",

-alexthenerdette

"The club can't even handle me right now..."

So I don't know exactly what word to go with right now, but I'm officially...

mindless, scatterbrained, and just flat out dumb.

Okay those aren't the best words, but there really isn't a correct word to describe my current situation.

For the past two days I haven't been able to see clearly, and I wear contacts, so that was just really weird. I couldn't see my classmates faces even in the small classrooms that we have. The problem really stood out today when I was taking the ACT. I had to get really close to the booklet and the words would focus in and out. Unfortunately I figured out what was wrong just a few hours ago. I had the left contact in the right eye and the right contact in the left eye. 

Wow?

Yea. I know. 

If I was in a big crowd of people and Ron Weasley decided to shout a favorite quote of mine, "Oy, pea-brain!" I would immediately look up and respond to my well-deserved name. There are other things that also contribute to me insulting myself today, but I really don't want to go into detail because I'm way too embarrassed. 

Other than those "problems" today was an unexpectedly splendid day. I can't even feel that I took the ACT this morning. 

Cheers! Off to do awesome things, to make up for my un-awesomeness, like watching Doctor Who and reading Mockingjay...

-alexthenerdette

A Moo Birthday...

Sooo today is my 18th birthday.

Wait. WHAT?

yeahh....

The day consisted of the following:

-sore, aching, and disgustingly painful muscles and me being whiny about it

-people telling me to go buy a lottery ticket

-the impending doom of the ACT this Saturday

-family members calling me to wish me a happy birthday

-family members calling me to wish me a happy birthday shockingly exclaiming that I'm growing up so fast while trying to squeeze in the question "do you have a boyfriend?" To which I reply with "erm...no," restraining myself from replying with an annoyed tone and sarcasm. 

-Gummy worms

-People in my school actually remembering my birthday...

-A dance off with my sister

-And finally blogging about this somewhat important day of my life...

I didn't have a very optimistic attitude today, and that's the only thing I regret. Other than that it was a pretty awesome day! I'm a year older and I still feel like the insane me that I've always been and I consider that a good sign. I had quite a few people tell me that their 18th year of life was the best. I'm gonna have to disagree with that...but I don't know. I guess I'll just have to wait and see....

Oh, and that whole i'm-studying-for-the-act attitude I had a few days ago is gone....splendid...

Umm yea, can I get some sleep with some caffeine and a hug to go please? 

-alexthenerdette

Go away and don't come back until you learn what earphones and headphones are for...

Dear computer/headphone user that is blasting music,

The point of using headphones is to put them on your freakin' ears. Headphones, earphones...on your head...on your ears...geddit? 

Obviously not...

No I really don't want to hear how bad your taste in music is. I don't want catchy pop/RnB tunes in my head. And I really don't want that "In Your Head" song by Jason Derulo in my head EITHER!

Don't you get it? I have homework. I have to study for two tests. I have a life. 

You might  have homework and you might have two tests to study for and, sure, you might have a life, BUT your life consists of blasting music on headphones that are setting upon your head! 

10 minutes later...

At this point, I'm really really hoping my evil glare burns into the back of your head. And maybe you get that you should leave...now.

Yea that's right...keep walking!

Wow... I guess words really are powerful. (or maybe it was my evil glare) Either way the blasting of "noise" has now ceased. 

Ah yes, back to what I call "having a life",

-alexthenerdette

It's time to be awesome...

This really wasn't intended for me to write down what I'm up to in my life...

And it wasn't intended for that mainly because to the people outside of my family, it seems like i have no life, and actually I do, so remaining a mystery to them forever is what I'm aiming for...

Or at least that's what I thought I wanted...

Because, you see, unfortunately it seems like that's what I've been doing though, just updating what's going on in my life with a few twists of course... 

But I think I'm okay with it...finally... It's about time I let go. It's time to stop caring, and overthinking all the possibilities. It's time to let go of ideas and wishes that are never going to happen and embrace the life that is now. It's time to lol whenever I feel like it... It's time to stop hiding...

I'm writing about this because of two reasons: 

1. I'm gonna go ahead and use my knowledge of psychology and assume that to everyone in my school thinks I'm just a person with no life and no thoughts, who stays at home and does homework then goes to sleep and wakes up and finishes up more homework...and so on...almost like a primitive robot let's say...if that makes sense...

2. I'm usually really quiet at school, but on a day that I come home and  I'm as quiet as I am at school, my family immediately knows that I'm either having a bad day or something is really wrong. Ever since I was little home was always the place I ran to after having a bad day at school, which in all honesty, was everyday. I don't know what made me so vulnerable for people to be so mean to me, but it happened. Maybe the cultural difference? Being quieter than the others in my class? I don't know, but I was an easy target. So home was the place where I found, and still find, comfort. It's the place where I learned to be strong, where I learned to accept myself just the way I was even though I knew that no one, other than my family, ever would. 

I didn't, just now, figure this out. But I did just now blog about it. I came to realize this the summer of 2009. So the challenge has been completed. I gave myself a year to find me and who it is that I really am (if that makes sense :) )

I found alexthenerdette...

I found that it's okay to get close to people 

I found out that, quite surprisingly, I do like hugs, and I'm no longer afraid of them...

I found a way to laugh at myself 

I found out that everyone has a different way of defining awesome and let's just say according to me...sure, I'm pretty awesome

I found out that being overly happy and cheery in the mornings at school without caring what other people think is... refreshing

I found out that I can be quiet and maybe a little shy, but I can still put in more effort and makes some else's day brighter by saying "hi" or smiling a little more...trust me a smile goes a long way...

I found that it's okay if I'm a total nerd about certain things... I love "stuff" what can I say? (<---John Greene reference)

I found out that it's okay to show people when I'm happy about something...and that it's not okay to want to appear emotionless all the time...

I came to find that it's okay to be me, besides if I'm not me, who will be me? 

Ohh, well this can only conclude one way...

Dear Life,

Dear Senior year,

Dear 2010,

It's time to forget, it's time to be awesome...

-alexthenerdette

Totally Awesome John Greene Quotes...

"Saying 'I notice you're a nerd' is like saying, 'Hey, I notice that you'd rather be intelligent than be stupid, that you'd rather be thoughtful than be vapid, that you believe that there are things that matter more than the arrest record of Lindsay Lohan. Why is that?' In fact, it seems to me that most contemporary insults are pretty lame. Even 'lame' is kind of lame. Saying 'You're lame' is like saying 'You walk with a limp.' Yeah, whatever, so does 50 Cent, and he's done all right for himself." 

"…because nerds like us are allowed to be unironically enthusiastic about stuff… Nerds are allowed to love stuff, like jump-up-and-down-in-the-chair-can’t-control-yourself love it. When people call people nerds, mostly what they’re saying is ‘you like stuff.’ Which is just not a good insult at all. Like, ‘you are too enthusiastic about the miracle of human consciousness’." 

"Lucky Charms are like the vampires of breakfast cereal. They're magical, they're delicious, they're a little bit dangerous and bad for you. They initially make you feel great, but then over time you realize that maybe your relationship with Lucky Charms is just a little bit unhealthy and you start to think, 'Maybe I don't want to be in a long-term relationship with a breakfast cereal that tastes delicious but damages my health.' But then the Lucky Charms gets all stalker on you and for some reason you kind of like that. It makes you feel special. So yeah, you spend your life with Lucky Charms. That's awesome. That's a great way to... get diabetes." 

John Green...you make me smile,

-alexthenerdette