A Moo Perspective on 2010: a look back...

Two thousand ten. Twenty ten. The two-o one-o. 2010.

What a freakin' awesome year...

I still remember what my life was like exactly one year ago. Exactly. Not even kidding. A year ago on New Year's Eve I was on facebook pretty much the whole night and I wasn't even chatting with anyone, I was just there. Lame? Yea I know, but a lot has changed since then, I promise. Anyways I still remember that a little bit after midnight someone that I didn't know that well from school wished me a Happy New Year's on facebook. I responded back politely, and surprisingly enough the conversation never stopped. That's how I began the new year, making a new friend, something I'd always been terrible at. 

That kind of says a lot about this year for me. I made some new friends. It came to the point where I actually wanted to be at school because I looked forward to seeing the people there. Unfortunately there are some "friends" that shouldn't be trusted and jerkish guys that should be ignored, I learned that the hard way. During the summer I had the opportunity to meet a lot of really amazing people at leadership camps and I'm still close with some of them. I also moved out to the country and that was a pretty big change.

This year also brought in that long-awaited senior year of high school. Senior year is probably the main reason why this year has been so awesome. I can't really describe why, all I can say is I've really learned to appreciate the people around me and I feel extremely blessed to have them in my life. This year involved a lot of me learning about life. I connected way more with the world around me, I don't know if that makes sense. I guess I simply grew up. 

Okay, so this is getting pretty sappy and personal for me, so like any introverted, private person I'm gonna stop sayin stuff. So I'm gonna end this by quoting one of my favorite Sparklife writers...

"Happy New Year!  May your 2011 be full of zucchinis, requited crushes, and the biggest pair of Confidence Pants the world has EVER SEEN!"

-alexthenerdette

A memorable day to forget...

Maybe it's time to talk about it (or blog...whatever). Maybe it's time to let it out and let it go...for good. December 23, 2010 wasn't terrible but it is and will forever be one of the most memorable days of my life. 

I happened to be in St. Louis, Missouri that day for my sister's surgery at the children's hospital. That morning I was already up and ready at four in the morning along with my sister and mom to go to the hospital for the early appointment. I had seen my sister being taken away to the OR before, but it was only a fuzzy memory of when I was six years old. I got to relive that once again, and even though I knew it was for the best it wasn't easy to be there. 

So that's how that morning went. Since it was a minor procedure, my sister was able to leave that same day. So we began to travel home, hoping that the expected wintry weather would give us a chance to make it home safely. 

And it did, but unfortunately before we got home safely certain things happened that have left me 1.) scarred for life 2.) thankful to be alive. 

During the late afternoon as we traveled back on the interstate, I saw three very recent major car accidents along the road. It was only misty at the time, the weather wasn't that bad at all. About an hour later we went through a somewhat large city. We began drawing nearer to a bridge at about 25 miles per hour and the completely unexpected happened as the car got on the bridge. All of the sudden we began to slide/spin all over the road. The bridge was rather long and at one point the car got too near to the right side of the rails then it quickly slid to the middle of the road. So yea. We almost fell off a bridge. It was a fantastic thing that we were the only ones on the bridge at the time or else I don't know if I'd be here right now. Alive that is. Just sayin...

So anyways we make it to a real road (non-slippery by the way) it's still misty, but now it's below freezing temperature. Control over the car is gained, yet we are still in shock and stupefied by the incident. So okay we're off the bridge driving safely and very slowly on the highway out of city limits (kinda in the middle of nowhere), still taking in what just happened when a car pulls into the highway coming towards us. Normal car coming towards us on the highway. Nothing strange about that. I blinked and the next thing I knew it was spinning towards us, we get somewhat out of the way and the car spins into the ditch. They didn't roll over or anything so the traffic just kept on going. We decided to stop on the side of the road still unsure of what to do. As we slow down to stop on the side, we start to slide too, but only just a little bit. But I cannot explain the fear that I felt in those milliseconds. 

Since we were in the middle of nowhere we had no choice but to go on. It was now a mixture of mist, snow, and ice. But it was expected to get even worse in a few hours. So we drove 30 miles an hour for a few hours. I closed my eyes every time a car passed us. We finally got out of that awful weather and that awful highway. As we got closer to our destination the weather got a lot more pleasant. (My younger less-grateful self that hadn't gone through this experience would call it "boring" weather.) Then I got a call from my dad. He was just letting us know that it was a good thing that we kept going because the highway we had just been on had gotten a lot worse and that there had been multiple car accidents. I pretty much cried the rest of the way home. That could've been me. But even worse, that was someone else. I wanted to stop the cars headed in that direction, but I couldn't. I don't know the people that were involved in the car accidents. I don't know if they survived I don't know anything, but they were on my mind a lot. When we got home late that night (actually early morning) I realized I had lost feeling in my legs and arms from being so tense. The headache that followed wasn't all that great either but we were all here...safe. It was the best Christmas gift ever.

Memorable. It's the only adjective I can use to describe this day. In its good ways and its bad ways it was memorable. And it's time to write it down, appreciate it for whatever it was, learn from it, and let it go. 

G'bye,

-alexthenerdette

Warning: Cranky blogger...

I really don't like to write when I'm having a bad day because you know those melancholic violin songs out there in the world? Well I end up reminding myself of a really sucky, out-of-tune version of one of those. 

Oh well... Please accept my apologies. You're gonna stop reading now? Fine. Whatever keeps the buoyancy in your flotation apparatus... Bye?

Anyway...

The weights class that I've been complaining about constantly will end soon! Unfortunately that means that until then I'll be tested for improvement until that final day of class. It actually began today. So it's official and even down on paper that I really did get stronger. But once again that means that by 10:00 in the morning I'm exhausted and cranky. How unfortunate. 

Tomorrow is also the day of my first final. My thoughts today were consumed by vocabulary words and definitions and meanings of root words and stuff like that... I was almost obsessed.

I also found out that my sister will be having surgery the 23rd of December. First of all hasn't she been through enough? And second of all Christmas break plans are definitely gonna be different this year.

So what exactly did I do when I got home after school? (because I have nothing to do after school cuz i'm just cool like that)

That's right. I took a nap. I went back to feeling like a very childish, cranky 10 year-old and forgot about the world for awhile. 

-alexthenerdette

p.s. again i apologize

hello december...by the way awkward is sooooo "in" this year...

Oh hello there!

*waves*

Don't be rude. Wave back you! There ya go. Hey easy there don't hurt yourself. Stop. No really.

Hope this finds you enjoying a delightful December day. 

Anyway as this week comes to an end I think I should probably update on what's up in life just so in the future I can maybe remember stuff and be like, "Oh, yea I remember that. Ha ha ha." Then I'll have a roaring laugh at how much of a walking awkward pause I was during high school. After the laughter's over I'll probably reflect on how nothing's changed... Then maybe I'll get depressed, but for the meantime...

Life was awesome this week. I learned a few things. First that saying "lima beans," is a great way to change a conversation and fill in awkward pauses. I also learned that if you are forced to play knockout in weights class and you refuse to give some effort and just stand there until someone gets you out, you get to sit out. It's the best feeling. I also learned to appreciate college professors who enjoy sports because one of my classes was cut short just because everyone (including the instructor) really didn't want to miss a game. This week was full of awkwardness though. It's funny now, but at that time it wasn't. Awkward lunch conversation revelations, awkward weightlifting workouts that require awkward spotting techniques, and stuff like that...

I also realized that I've been video blogging (vlogging) for two years now. The thing is that first year I had no idea that vlogging was "something" and I didn't know of other famous youtube vloggers. It's not something that makes me proud of myself really, I just feel sort of accomplished in a way. What? That's sorta the same thing? What. Ever. It's not official though since I've never uploaded anything to da internetz and I probably never will. 

I prefer blogging. Blogging is cool. Even though my blogging is as interesting as watching grass grow...

*awkward pause*

-alexthenerdette